in the dying light of day,
the Padang a muddy mess,
a field made barren
white, dried sand
sprinkled across damp, brown
patches of wet soil;
spots of green peeked out.
in the background, stood
naked frames, bereft
of their dress of wooden
planked seats.
idle machines lie about,
along with marooned
army boys in their fatigues
and the haphazard fashion
of men not of this shore,
while a yellow crane, [...]
Archive for August, 2005
after the Parade
Posted in Poetry on August 31, 2005 | 4 Comments »
Real Unreal
Posted in Poetry on August 28, 2005 | 2 Comments »
What can I do?
This world is getting to me
And I’m longing to be free
From the illusion
From the infinite confusion
I’m saying goodbye
To those castles in the air
To every want and care
I see the cracks we try to paper
So long to mist and vapour
Chorus:
It’s an unreal world
And it’s hard to stay real
So hard just to feel
It’s harder [...]
For a Dear Sister
Posted in Musings on August 27, 2005 | Leave a Comment »
Walking Broken
I’ve been walking broken
Been getting used to that
I’m learning to live with the pain
Of not quite reaching up
Hearing those words in a song
The Word behind the words
Think I get the feeling
That perfection’s not to be
It’s like looking in a mirror
And seeing everything’s smudged
Then having to decide
Whether to look in or up
Well what can i [...]
Hero
Posted in Musings on August 25, 2005 | 1 Comment »
“Am i not supposed to have what i want…what i need? What am i supposed to do?”
These words, uttered by Peter Parker (Tobey Maguire) in Spiderman 2, captured perfectly the essence of my angst as i wrestled with the Father last weekend.
There was an imperceptible something welling up from within – something that made [...]
Overdue
Posted in Musings on August 21, 2005 | 2 Comments »
My maternal grandfather used to stay over, when my family was residing in Kembangan, ever so often for a few weeks on end while i was in secondary school. Because of that he was also the grandparent my brothers and i were closest to.
i remember how he used to teach us different card games and [...]
Be
Posted in Musings on August 16, 2005 | Leave a Comment »
Many are the sorrows of the wicked,
but steadfast love surrounds the one who trusts in the LORD.
Be glad in the LORD, and rejoice, O righteous
and shout for joy, all you upright in heart!
Psalm 32:10-11
I was meditating on this psalm and these verses especially through the day, which was especially challenging because i was utterly exhausted [...]
Home
Posted in Musings on August 10, 2005 | 2 Comments »
When I’m with you, I feel safe…it’s like I’m home.�
- Andrew Largeman (Zach Braff) to Samantha (Natalie Portman) in Garden State
I’ve watched three films on DVD in the past five days – Anchorman, I Heart Huckabees and Garden State.
Anchorman is a very Will Ferrell-type of movie. A lot of inane humour, mixed in with the [...]
Looking Up
Posted in Poetry on August 8, 2005 | 2 Comments »
i looked up
and i wished i could
drink in the azure.
Be drunk.
Then i might traipse
on powdered cloud,
ride on chariot rays,
wander amidst cerulean climes.
i would live in the
Above, and ever be
nearer, my Lord, to Thee.
Blk 4, Ward 48, Rm 25, Bed 1
Posted in Musings on August 4, 2005 | 8 Comments »
My mom SMS-ed me just now.
And i remembered her telling me that my father was to be warded today for a few days to carry out his chemotherapy. Apparently, the cancer cells are more aggressive than ever, which is why he’ll have to return to the hospital every three weeks for a fresh injection of [...]
The Quiet on a Lonely Monday Night
Posted in Musings on August 2, 2005 | Leave a Comment »
I think it’s always a little dangerous, for someone like me, melancholy me, to listen to sad songs of love forlorn on a lonely Monday night.
Melancholy sinks deeper still in the yawning gasp of my soul and I look to the heavens. My brow furrowed, my lips a topsy-turvy smile.
I wonder why I’ve turned out [...]
