My mom SMS-ed me just now.
And i remembered her telling me that my father was to be warded today for a few days to carry out his chemotherapy. Apparently, the cancer cells are more aggressive than ever, which is why he’ll have to return to the hospital every three weeks for a fresh injection of chemicals.
Chemotherapy. Huh. Hardly therapeutic, is it?
The thing about chemotherapy is that it kills healthy cells along with the nasty, cancerous ones. It basically strips the body of its immune system, making it weak enough for the chemicals to take effect and kill the mutated, cancerous cells. Of course, in the course of defeating our valiant white blood cells, a whole host of innocent and healthy cells die. The wages of war, i suppose. That is why you often see people undergoing chemotherapy waste away before your very eyes.
Not very therapeutic for the people around too, yeah?
My mother urged me to visit him. I think i will. Not out of any mawkish sentimentality on my part or even of the fragile facade of a father-son relationship that we have. If i visit him, it’ll purely be for the sake of my Father in heaven and the Son He sent to die on the cross for me.
i pictured the scene in the hospital ward as i was swimming.
Painful silence pervades the air, mingling with ever-present death and disease, as i shift around awkwardly on the green linoleum that line the drab floors of Type-C wards. Looking out of the window, i’d be counting the minutes till it wouldn’t be considered that unfillial or rude of me to leave. My eyes fall ever so often on his ailing, withering form. My heart sinks a little. Not so much because i look upon the shell of a once powerful presence, but death sucks. It positively stinks. Maybe at this point of time, i’d be wondering if i should be finding it strange that i’m not the least bit moved by his condition. i’m evil and don’t i know it. Then, i say my goodbye, and i walk out without looking back even once. Not even once.
Hi Mr Sng,
Just to share with you, my mum went through chemotheraphy too. That was during the last year’s july.
After the first jab my parents decided not to continue with the medication. It was obvious that it wasn’t going to make a difference from the medical point of view. The doctors just adviced my mum to take it not because it can heal her of cancer, i guess just to allow her to spent a longer time with us.
So, my dad says forget about theraphy and trust God. Pray about it. It’s been a year since my mum last had her jab and she is still well! It’s a miracle! Her cancer’s already the fourth stage and according to the doctor she should not have survived. I believe it’s because of my dad’s pure faith in him and also, God knowing that we could not afford to lose her so he performed many miracles on her.
It’s been 9 years since she had cancer. I believe God will allow her to stay on for many more years before he takes her home.
I’ve ever lost hope in God but now i just thank him for the little more time he lets my mum stay with us.
Keep the faith Mr Sng! God Bless U!
Xin Mei
3M
hello mr sng,
i chanced upon this site as i was browsing forums.
i’ve lost faith in God, many times.
and i haven’t been a heck of a good kid.
but i’ve realised that He would never leave me even if i turn my back to Him, and i believe He will not leave you too.
God has His plans yes? =)
yeah, quote xin mei.
keep the faith.
take care and Lord bless.
cheer up.
you and your family will be in my prayers. =)
chill-
weejiayin
3C
Hi Xin Mei,
wow…that’s a really great testimony! Thank you for sharing! It’s really encouraging
When i pray for my father, it’s that through this cancer, God will be glorified. This come in a variety of ways but my burning desire is that my Father will truly, truly know the living God (even though he does attend church and all) and to break through religious routine into wondrous fellowship.
As you might have gathered from my posts about my father, i’m not very close to him so i would appreciate your prayers for me in being more loving to him. It’s a real struggle for me in this area.
i thank our Father that you do treasure your time and relationship with your parents so much. It’s a precious gift that ultimately points to the greatest gift of a relationship with the Father and Creator of all.
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Hi Mr Sng,
Honestly, I’ve ever drifted away from my parents. They were so upset and after much stuff which had happened I realized how much I’ve upset them. There were several times when I was that close to losing my mum. I got really really upset. I realized how fragile life. every second that passes us by brings us one step closer to death. The time we can spend with our loved ones is limited. I think that’s why it is important to spread God’s word. There might be just this someone who is so near to us who hasn’t heard or accept our God.
I remember a pastor saying that he had this dream when he saw himself in heaven and his grandparents burning in hell. He realized that he has been spreading the gospel to so many people and yet forgeting to spread those precious words to the ones closest to him.
I suppose in order for your dad to know more about God and accept him is to build up the relationship.
Everyone’s got their own struggle, so do I. Then again, I suppose once we are able to pull through the most difficult part, God will provide the rest. We in turn will be stronger whether to the benefit of us in life or our faith in God. just like what my dad always tells me, God has his own timing. I know he’s also got something prepared specially for your dad.
I will continue to pray for your relationship with your dad.
All things are possible!
Xin Mei
3M
hey mr sng. hmm. i’m in no position to say “i know how you feel” and whatnot. but well, hope things get better for ya.
Hello Mr Sng,
In times like these,
the love of God reveals itself distinctively.
Trust in the Lord you’ll be able to share it with your dad.
Let’s all keep that trust together.
We’re praying =)
God loves,
Evangeline / 3M
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